im dreading every single day

Today's outfit





it took me ages to figure out how to use Fireworks, with the help of my sister on how to make the pics blur, etc..

Damn pc keep hanging despite the recent upgrade of the RAM

grrrr

Cant wait to meet the barbies tml..n yar, KEN=steven =)

Last Sat, I had no buys from the shoppin with Uncle at bugis
note: with UNCLE !!!! (no wonder!)
I was goin in shops after shops to look for a decent lookin dress
after walkin for SOOOOO long, I found a not bad de dress
Which unfortunately earn a not good de comment from who else, uncle LAR
"So SHORT?!!!"
thats his reply
geez..
I went home with NOTHING

Yesterday was a LOUSY day

SOOOOO....
Today, I decided to give myself a TREAT
despite the fact that Im earning peanuts
and that my auntie is sacking me soon (no more sunday job!)
and that I should b savin $$ for my uni/ACCA
etc
etc
etc

But still, Angie's Philosophy says
"Why save? when you dun even noe for certain if you gonna live thru today?"

So might as well SPEND ba!

My shoppin spree includes a DRESS (like finally!!), white jeans, a polka dots top and a jacket

EH, all very casual

Dammit

What should i wear to work tml??

Double groan

Today marks my 9th month ani
I cant believe it
NINE freaking months!
im SOO proud of myself
Yes, this is by far my LONGESTttttttt r/s

Not that I hav anythin happening on this supposed to be great day
Sorry, I hav no happenings to blog about

I can totally understand if you start clicking on my friends' Links
cos im probably the MOST boring person in your network
=(

I cant believe this myself either
Im gettin so boring
What a bore..

When you get into a r/s, the beginning is always or maybe, usually sweet..

As you and your partner advanced into deeper understanding n blah blah blah, it developed into something "you should understand me, i should understand you" stage..
This may sound really "understanding" and almost perfect

But the truth is this is where the nightmare starts..

You start to take each other for granted
Like "You hav to do this with me, You hav to go there with me"
"You cannot talk to him/her" "You cannot this, you cannot that"

The love you shared suddenly involves "Terms and conditions" or shall i put it in a NOT so nice way "RULES and REGULATIONS"

And slowly, for whatever you do, Its no longer for yourself..You hav to think abt your partner's feelings..Should you failed, an arguement will arise..

In the beginning, the guy will NEVER fail to celebrate the ONE month ani

Sometimes, the guy may take the effort to celebrate the 2nd month ani

Rarely, the guy will even bother abt the 3rd month ani

So, when u r like me, 9th month, it is just another day, thats all

So why do guys tried so hard to make an impression on us, when in the end, they themselves dun seemed to make any effort?

If you r still reading..Sorry, I hav no answers to that

Not even the book "Women r from Venus, Men r from Mars" doesen have the answer..

The r/s starts to become a routine

A routine, faithfully followed by the TWO

For simple-minded ppl, they r very HAppy following the routine

But for ppl like us, Whats' your TAKE?

Oh yea, Im being all emo

Thanks to my mom
for the delicious (or so she claimed) dinner she whipped up

"This PORK is marinated with wine. The gravy is wine HOR..This is hao liao (good food).."

HELLO mom, i HATE pork!
groan
YUCKS
the greatest mistake is I attempted to eat a piece of it
OMG
I thot i will become DRUNK la
like some HARD liqour can
my throat partically burns

And she still can talk to me while chewing "Hao chi hor?"

Faints

My elder sis LOVE this dish
mom practically cooked all the dishes that Jie like
and i HATE it!!!
I hav totally diff taste buds as jie

She is SO bias
Haiya, that's cos Jie is not always home for dinner

Im lk STILL damn hungry
the dinner is a total disaster

All i want after a long day at work is a SATISFYING dinner!!

Wailsss....

Sorry, Im blogging for the THIRD time in a day
=)

There will be cosplay going on, on 16th Dec 2006
Gena, her brother and I are going to take part
Heee
We r gonna dressed up as characters in NARUTO anime
YIPEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
the brother will be going as SASUKE


Gena is going as some unknown character cos she claimed that she dosen wanna b photographed
*faints*

As for ME, im going as Gaara of the desert


My favourite character! so BLOODY cool !

I r'ced an email on a comic n it somethin perverted from GENA

eh, gena! u have the continous part not?

Muhahaa..
Oh yea, I read it
*giggles*
Damn COOL lah!
I will upload one by one, if i feel lk it (haha, if you r interested, u can tag on ma tagboard to ask me to hurry! =P)








I will upload the continous part
Muahhaa..very KINKY..gulps, i LIKE!

iTs da weekends -> YEAH!
Sat is gone -> SIAHz!

Basically, my only OFF day is SAT
thats cos' my attachment takes up my mon-fri
As for sunday, I still gonna work for my auntie
Not that Im complaining, I really dun mind the additional money $$$
Just that, I seemed to have developed a phobia of numbers n calculators
I can no longer tolerate them
period
cos' thats what I face from mon-fri
Keep on pressing the calculator n calculating the figures
Its freaking me out, kinda

I gonna wake up at 5:30am tml
For whatever reasons, I shall not elaborate
definitely not something very happening

I have decided to decorate my desk
muhaha, with CUTE cute de stuffs!
Yipeee, to last me for another TWO whole months of doin the same thing
Im so bored at work
Its all routine

alrite, Im so damn tired
Off to hit the sack!

Oh yea, thats ma NEW bedsheets I bought for myself
Very wen xin

I need to buy Bathroom slippers or just any ugly slippers to wear in the office !!!
Most of the time, when im seated, legs under the desk, I will take off my killer heels.
And when I get home after work, I realised that my shoes r REALLY DIRTY n very BLACK!
faints

the auntie never clean properly
Somemor, all the used staples on the carpeted floor! When I accidentally stepped on them, I will say it discreetly : "knnbccb"

=)

Im bored, to the extreme

Ah Ng probably have loads of fun at DXO..
groan

Im off to zzzzzzzzzzzzzz, after much stoning

Its time I bring my camera to work to cam whore
yipeeeeeeeeeeeee

Im meeting Steven every morning, before I stumble off to work
Alrite, to use the word "meet" is perhaps not that appropriate
Basically, we will always bump into each other on our way to slog (work=slog)
Steve's botak, by the way, if you have been following my entries,
but hell no, his tiny growing hairs stil as soft as ever
I was expecting it to feel like a cactus LAR when i touched it =P

Its always nice to see familiar faces..

I met grace yesterday after work to you will noe it if u read her blog
I shall not touch on that anymore
Anyway, sorry girlie, made ya waited for so long!

My colleagues bought me to The Cathy at cineleisure ytd during break
My break lasted for TWO whole hours!
On top of that, my lunch at the cafe was FREE OF CHARGE
For a girl who is earning peanuts, Im truly very pleased o.0
I had FISH & CHIPS and apple tea for lunch + Chicken Wings!
Yummy! its was delicious!
I didnt even noe that Cathy has a cafe by itself LAR!
For Gamers, like LEANNE!!! you can go play game at eh, i think Level 9
Check it out! I find it damn worthwhile la!
If u join the member, still get FREE 2 movie tickets, goodie bags, discounts, etc etc..the FREEBIE list is damn longggggg
If ya interested, can check out the details at the counter

Basically, Im just there to makan free n tour around the place
I even went to the office behind the ticketing booth
Wah lao, the place DAMN small
But I realised that the welfare for the staffs is not that bad

While cabbing back to work, I passed the 7-eleven which i NEVER fail to go if I go clubbing at mohd sultan!
Wah lao! Its stil there, after so many years
The "long gang" (drain) outside the 7-eleven is the USUAL spot where I emptied all the alcohol that I hav drank.. =I can still rmbr that after vomiting, I will stil sit n chill beside my vomit..
Muahhahahaaa, damn silly
I always buy the same thing at that 7-eleven - mineral water..

After chilling, we will go back to the club to drink somemor, dance as long as our legs can support us, drink until someone starts vomiting..

Just seeing that 7-eleven brings back fond memories, the younger days
There's no more Bars/Clubs/Pubs anymore, except DoubleO still surviving
My workplace is actually above DoubleO
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I went shopping today after work, alone
Shopping alone is not that bad as it sounds
I seemed to be going back to older days
Thats not a bad things, after all

I was all set to buy some new skirts and DRESSES, for WORK!!!
but in the end, I got myself a pair of SHORts!
groan

hey, sam! remember the pair of white polka dots shorts that u wore to sch and I went ga-ga over it? Ha, I bought the BLACK one! Grins

ONE MORE DAY to weekends! YIPPEE

THINKING bubble ('',)

im up at seven in the morning today
My body clock seems to have set it at seven
ever since i start my internship

Im sorry, i cant upload the pics taken at gracie birthday dinner ytd
cos apparently, my elder sis wanna loan it
and she's out already
I will blog a detailed entry on Gracie birthday once i hav ma hands on my camera
An entry dedicated to gracie!

There has been something on my mind
Should i jus throw the idea of driving licence outta window?
i wont hav a car to drive even after i passed
So whats the use?
Why am i feeling so hard up abt that piece of card?
my frens offered to drive me all around n I jus needed to give them a buzz
And when i feel lk driving, I can use their car, but of cos that wont b that often based on the fact that I dun hav that licence yet
"So why bother makin urself so upset over driving?" my frens said
Oh yar, i thought to myself
I hav no idea either
i will seriously consider the idea you guys suggested

Yesterday was the first day at work
It was fine
and really tiring
Theres so much to learn n im kinda falling in love with the ppl there
they are super patient n kind to me
thank God
But ONE day that really bother me is that ACCOUNTING is so boring!
screams
Its a routine!
For goodness sake, ROUTINE
ok, let me die this instant!
I want to b an accountant, NO MORE!
urgh
start work at 8am, then sit at the desk til 1pm
1pm - 1:45pm is LUNCH!
oh yea, how come lunch only 45mins, not ONE hour ah?
pouts
My lunch is damn expensive cos' i stil haven reccee around to search for kopitiam
So meantime, will be lunch-ing at restaurants! yay! but heart-ache..$ fly away
Im really fortunate that the girl from TP who is also intern-ing at Cathy Organisation Holdings is a uber NICE girl
she is really kind n sweet!
Oh my..


Im on OFF today
yay
ok, next
I passed failed my TP yet again
If ya the kind who is bias against women drivers and all
u think that women r lousy drivers..u noe what?
I may agree with u now, serious

This afternoon was a total emotional roller coaster

What would u do when u r all but disappointed with urself?
and u wondered why, why r u learning so hard to get the damn license, when u cant even bring it to heaven?
and that u feel so lonely, like no one else can understand how u really feel
and there wasnt a shoulder for u to lean on
and all u can hear are laughters of others
and u start asking, why isnt there any laughter of ur own? why aint u even smiling? why?

I felt like the only soul on earth
There was not a single person I can turn to
My bestie is probably busy with her bf or fyp
polymates are all haiving their SIP
My bf is at home, getting ready to go work
my others frens r studying

I felt so upset that i dun wanna go home to face the four walls
I went shoppin at parkway alone
hopin to buy some semi formal wears
I walked ard and i felt so lonely that i almost die
in the end, it was a total disaster
I tried on a dozen of clothes and none fitted
In the end, i bought only a top which i think is ugly
urgh
Then, i thought of some of my other frens who r always FREE
ahaha, met up n that definitely perk me up
aHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Why cant all men be like them?
knowing all the right things to do n right words to say at the right time..

I guess I have changed, really, in a big way
I used to be really independent, until now
I felt so weird without my bf by my side
Its like I hav lost a part of me
and that really irritates the hell outta me
I felt incomplete
Oh gawd, i hate such emo

This 3 months will definitely get me into being independent

Yay! tml is the start of SIP
I want my supervisor to like LOVE me
cos' the 1st thing i gonna say is "CAn u pls gimme OFF day tml so dat i can take ma driving lesson, u sweet girl?"

Wish me luck on that, yea?
I need it, desperately
-signs

I hope i can really meet some nice peeps there
and who noes?
I may even meet movie makers!
Ha, they r gonna spot me n put me in a movie
ok, thats too ridiculous

ok, im really urps...nervous!
-angie jumps up n down

i jus want everythin to go ma way
Simply in a way that flavours me

I tried to blog jus nw
Then i proof-read it

And i realised "thats alot of COMPLAINTS"

So i deleted it n im here bloggin abt this bullshit
I would very much prefer to post my previous entry
But why damper you reader with my blue-black mood

I caught "Devil wears Prada" this afternoon with uncle at TM after my driving lesson
AHHHH, if u hav a vagina, u should watch it
urps, thats a crude way of saying if you are female
Im not in the mood to be civilised o.O

Tell me why I shouldnt go slurge on a PRADA bag
I am totally head over heels about this particular piece
Its driving me mad
Gawd
I need someone to beat the daylights outta me, NOW

I hope my SIP wont sucks the way i think it will be

Will be goin for a run with Esther, Ah ng n SUe later at Bedok Reservoir
My determination better let me fulfil one whole round
Yea, im feeling fat and all
its STILL the PMS
damn, cant my damn menses jus come n go without affecting my damn mood

the SLEEPover was a SUCCESS
hurray! Finally!
Haha, but sOrry, we were havin TOO much fun that we forgot to take any PHOTOS!
oh man, how can tt be!
oh yes, thats exactly what had happened

Had a night full of updates, screamings, shouting, muching on snacks which we never did finish, playing LAME games
OH well!
we even invented a NEW game!
Its named "SEX game"
yea, i noe, we r sick in the mind
but we love it! hahaa

We had a LONGggggggg talk on gracie's bed
and that somewhat made me felt depressed n all
oh yea, its probably the PMS at work again
Sometimes, I envy them
for what they have
but yet, im tryin to stay thankful for what i've got
oh yea, contradicting

And gracie's shit stinks BIG time! =P

The party knock out at abt 4am
I almost died when my head hit the pillow
The air con is freaking COLd can!

Alrite, i gonna go prepare to go out le!
Meeting Steve, Gena n Rach for dinner at ThaiExpress, Siglap
where Rach quote "Rich ppl place"
muhahahahahaha
what the hell!
oh yea

SIP is starting
and im getting all the butterflies
im reallyyyyy excited
ah! NEW ppl, NEW environment, NEW stuffs, NEW rountine
I like it NEW new NEW
YES!

Freedom of speech

There's so much to say
There's so much to express
but yet, im holding back
Its running through my mind
and the noises it caused

What was it that i had feared?
What was it that kept me back?
What were the answers that i have been lookin for?
What is it that i do not understand?

I just need a place

I just need someone who i can confide in

i just need to be myself

I just need LIPING

liping, where r you?

i miss u loads

Random thots

Grace is probably parkin at our blog once awhile to check if i hav uploaded
the pics of ytd class' bbq..
WARNING: alot of her self obsessed pics, mind u
The bbq was organised by none other than Amber
Thanks, Amber
I heart the chicken wings that was marinated with SEASONS ice lemon tes
Oh heck! i love SEASONS ice lemon tea, not any other shit brands but SEASONS!
yeah!
thats a very innovative way to marinating chicken! from amber's mom
WOW~

I heard from uncle about steve irwin
My first thought was "Oh dear, gena gonna be so upset!"
well, its pretty much proven that im RIGHT if you hav read gena's blog..

Tml, we r supposed to hav a pyjamas PARTY over gracie place!
but er, we hav yet to talk about the details, like whose going, what time to meet, etc..
We r a bunch of LOUSY lazy planners
Steven is always the one planning things, but u noe being a P.J party, its only allowed for girls
So thus, steven wont b planning right?!
So, u can see..everyone is too lazy to plan
oh yea, steve is irreplacable
erps..lets all hope it will fall into places o.O

we were supposed to meet for majong ytd at sam's place
which was later on cancelled
So we said to meet for drinks after the bbq at east coast, my FAV
but well, in the end, the rain made us cancelled me
OR rather both grace n I were too tired..yar, too tired stuffing ourself with food
Grace stuffing herself with OTAH
and me stuffing myself with SAUSAGEs..
ha, sorry steve n gena, had to made u guys wait for us for 30mins aimlessly
SORRY

Steve n I was sms-ing each other on plans to meet up for ice-cream sessions
since majong session is not feasible when only rach noes how to play..
So who is up for it? on THURSDAY



thats it, i have sum up my day
how boring can it get
if ya still reading, u deserve a pat
cause' im yawning all the way while i typed
Oh whatever

driving lessons tml again at EIGHT morning!~

im probably havin all the pre menses mood swings that swung at me full force today, NOW, oh whatever

nevertheless, i had a haircut today and am pleased with it
So why do i still feel THAT lousy?

Be GENEROUS with your money! For god's sake~

When was the last time u walked past a person who has only one limb?
When was the last time u walked past a person who is blind?
When was the last time u walked past a person who is handicapped?

When was it?

And yet, you CRUELLY walk and act as if the person dun exist
And yet, you choose to ignore the wonderful music the person is playing
And yet, you choose to live in the "ME, MYSELF and I" world

Some people may not be as fortunate as you are
Some people may not be born like u and me
Some people may not be able to talk, eat, sleep and walk like a normal person

If u have chose to walk past jus like that, I DESPISE you totally

YOu may then say that
1. You do not have any MONEY
2. You are poor

hello! If u r someone who takes pocket money from your parents, HOW dare u say u dun have money! HOW DARE YOU!
By being thrifty a little, you can do the least by giving a little, say $2?
How hard will that be?
Will that make u SO MUCH poorer?
If u dun spend money on unnecessary stuffs e.g. EVERY single issue of magazine, clothes, earrings, etc
YOU CAN contribute to!
and your contribution to them is GREAT!
not buyin a pair of earrings so that u can give some money to them WILL NOT kill u
So, why not start doing that?
Everytime u see someone needy, HELP them, be it money or whatever
Dun act as if the person do not exist
You never noe, one day, it may b YOU who needs help
So do somethin good today, Contribute n be generous with ur money
You dun hav to donate a HUGE amount, jus a little will do

If u are someone who earn his/her keep, will it kill u to give?
I do not understand
The money that u give out today can be earned back again
take a look at yourself!
aint u perfect? capable of earning more money?
If u feel that u r very hard at making ends meet, what abt them?
they do not have a job that PAYS them monthly
So they try to perform on the streets!
Can u imagine the courage! Give them a little credit!
They are all just tryin to earn a little money
It doesnt matter how much is it
As long as there is incomin money, they wont feel useless
So why cant u be kind and give them that glimpse of hope?
you dun have to spend money on GOOD food, u can jus eat decent food n contribute!
hello, they stand in the hot sun, singing away!
Occasionally, they will take breaks to have a drink
FOOD? I haven seen them eating, sadly

Do u contribute 10/20 cents to students who stuff the DONATION TINS?
You donate cuz the students were persistent
You donate cuz u dun wanna look like some miser

But hello, u dun even noe if your money will go straight to the needy ppl after subtracting the cost of tins, admin fees, etc
So, WHY DO U DONATE!

why wont u donate straight to those standing helplessly there?
It piss me off when i see a well-dressed chap walked past those less fortunate people
I wanna tear off his clothes and give him a hard kick at you noe where
they spend hundreds on their hair and clothes yet they are so selfish to even give ONE dollar!

Haven u been taught to be kind all the way from elementary school?

A good deed today will bring u a long way

im so DAMN thirsty
im not sure how about to describe it, seriously

There is NOT a single drop of water
or rather, the water left = HOT water in the "flask" plus my FAV bottle of strawberry red tea that im nt goin to drink except to share with huimay

I cant think straight without water
Oh boy

exmas over
but yet i stil feel the burden weighin on me
i cant stand upright
yea, TP test is up in one week's time
and yea, SIP is on its way too

And my following week seems to be all PACKED
tuition and DRIVING is revolving about in ma world

but well, some stuffs to look forward to! yippeeee

Monday
- Evening : Class BBQ (wow, bonding eh!) at amber's few house
- Night : Majong with Rach, grace, sam, steven, and eh, gena..u ON mah?

Slacker jerm is OFF to KL to enjoy! u win lo! u enjoy only, never join us! BOOHOO
remember to savour the DONUTS, yep!

Wed
- Well, what does WED implies? ha, go figure

Sometimes I feel that Im lackin somethin in life

and that makes my life feel incomplete

yet i couldnt point out what is actually is