i said No to dinner with colleagues

i waited since 8:00pm,

waited for you to come home to web cam.

you were back at 10:47pm

we chatted

and said bye at 10:58pm

J came back from Aussie after his studies,

his GF (like me) worked while he was overseas studying...

now J's back for 6 months,

and planning to propose...

the GF's wait paid off

but for me,

i have to wait for you to complete your studies,

wait for you to establish your career,

wait for you till 30.

and while waiting,

i just depreciate like that,

waiting for a future,

that may or never may come.

will we have a happy ending like them?

why am i doubtful?

im not complaining,

im just pondering...

btw,

i have crimson red nails now!

:D