its the same......

people doesn't change, do they?

cos as long as they have such a personality,

such a character,

such a trait...

no matter how many times they "wanted" to change,

they only do for a few days

and revert back to square one...

im trained to be independent.

sometimes,

i wonder if im willing

or

cos i have to

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i went to the IT fair yesterday

and it seems as though everything was FREE

if not, why is everyone so grabbing those gadgets?

walked till my back and legs ache big time

bumped into xiao mao, my ex starhub colleague

and it was really heart warming

bebe n his other camp mates bought hard disk, etc

the other awfully sweet couple whom im very envious of, bought a new lappy

cos their dog stepped and broke their existing lappy.

the sweet couple,

the guy never let go of the girl's hand

im serious

he will be constantly holding her hand,

her waist,

or simply looking into her eyes to check if she's ok...

really.

i practically stared at their sweetness openly

(ok, maybe at the corner of my eyes)

while me..........................................

i followed bebe quietly behind,

while he answers his overwhelming incoming calls (every 5 mins, at least 1 call)

i stood one side,

trying my best to blend into the background

while he surveyed the hard disks etc with his camp mates

for a moment,

i thought i was just insignificant

and it was my own wishful thinking that our 1st time going to the fair meant something.

i guess,

girls are just plain emotional, sentimental dolls.

anyway,

went home with no camera.

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today,

finally decided to buy the gold one

but its out of stock...

bebe got himself a silver one,

while i remained camera-ness.

comforted myself by

"i wont be going out everyday anyway,

so no chance to use camera till end of exams"

no point buying it now...

but

im the kind of plain emotional, sentimental doll -

i always make sure i get what i want...

or rather,

i give my everything to make sure i can get something i want...

so,

i was really pretty upset,

on the verge of tears.

cos i waited SO BLARDY long

and ended up with nothing yet again.

i hate that feeling.

long long time ago,

i was really into Adidas..

Saw this bag at the Adidas Outlet (the one opp. Far East)

their items are always limited,

few pieces available only.

the bag cost about $200 over...

but i really love it...

so i thought,

aiya...

dont buy la,

so expensive for one mini bag

(i was still in Poly back then)

so i went home and sleep on it.

AND I TELL U!

I CANT SLEEP AT ALL!

%&#*%#$#%

so the next day,

i went back to BUY that bag!

BUT FREAK!

OUT OF STOCK!

HOW CAN IT BE!

JUST OVERNIGHT, OUT OF STOCK!

IN A MERE FEW HOURS!

FROM THEN ON,

WHATEVER I FANCY and CAN AFFORD,

I MADE SURE I GET IT ON THE SPOT

but but but

why this time round i hesitated AGAIN!

WHY?!

but thank god,

i was only upset for awhile

before "hope" called & even helped me to order my camera

thanks, g!

:D

tuesday,

tuesday,

my hands on you...

someone asked if bebe is going to Aussie soon...

so i said yes...

" eh, so long distance relationship leh..."

"hmmm, ya lor..no choice ma"

"u never ask him to stay meh?"

"hmmm, i did la, of course. He said no."

"huh? then u can take it?"

"hmmm, no choice ma, if not how?"

"so long distance r/s, u can cope? u gonna wait for him?"

"hmmm, i dunoo eh, try to survive lo..haizzzzzzzzz....

scully he go Aussie find new girls, then i find new one lo..lol"

"ya lo, better find new one"

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