waiting to finish payment and ciao!

in office

gonna work on New Year's Day,

not complaining,

given the lovable colleagues :)

i so need to get my camera,

badly...

time,

where's it?

with the start of 2010,

school (yeah!),

burberry bag,

new camera,

new diet,

new love

:D

black beauty

i wanna make u mine

anyone knows of any good deals?

pm me!

the likes of single

xmas eve

a night of booze + chips

pillow fight

beauty talk

xmas

high tea lunch at Equinox, 70th

lil friends xmas party

boxing day

E's family xmas party

today,

i shredded memories...

tore up the letters i wrote,

but didnt had the chance to give

threw away some stuffs

im done

im affected, but you didnt know

i have already made my choice,

have you?

:(

you alone suffice.

***

i wanna buy new camera!

i wanna buy new camera!

i wanna buy new camera!

i wanna buy new camera!

my doors are open, wide open

i lost everything.

technically, i did.

but it couldn't be worse than last year's Nov.

this 2009,

i lost my 4 years relationship,

my hp charger,

my camera (less than 6 months old)

all these in a month

it's for the better,

many said.

it is,

i know it has to be.

when u think you really know a person very well,

that's when you're wrong,

you let your guard down and

everything collapses.

i have wallowed for long enough,

long enough to know what's going on,

long enough to hear many things too.

long enough to vacant the room in my heart as well

vacant it for someone else

when we walk,

we look straight ahead,

certain of the direction,

never once looking back and walking ahead at the same time.

for those who have always been there,

be it rain or shine,

thanks!

:D

im leaving and not looking back.

2010 is gonna be a FABULOUS year for Tigers,

i read!

furious

i only believe what i see,

cos whatever that was said,

it could jolly well be made-up.

family

they found out

and

said it was a pity...

im back from batam~

will blog about it!

mummy likes you

mummy asked what happened to us

few days later,

she said

"i wanna downgrade to a small condo after you get married..."

-.-"

i wanna do something for you

a short getaway,

a mini celebration.

to relax,

to pamper

it could be just that simple.

you lost me...

with all my commitments gone,

im registering for school next week...

ASAP!

i have this weird "sickness",

i must be kept busy.

if not,

i will get irritated easily,

throw temper.

speaking of temper,

i have been throwing temper in office these days to my closer colleagues!

shooting off vulgarities without a second thought,

scolding people,

bad face,

sighs...

my bad temper's coming back!

argh!

the world's changing,

you've changed..

so do i

taste buds

my 2nd time at this restaurant,

and i ordered the same thing.

it's classified under my TOP 10 favourite restaurant

with my favourite people~

sighs

Soft shell crab spicy noodles

Avocado Milkshake

baby, fu and me

just before the party starts~

baby looked so blur

busy~

while waiting for fu who is the one shopping -_-"

i have to keep telling myself,

i have to look at the big picture.

healthy lifestyle~

i thought im gonna have the whole house to myself...

but mummy's at home with her frens,

chatting and watching tv

-_-"

should have went out instead...

been gyming these days!

my back hurts from all that sit ups,

and my abs dont hurt a bit!!!

i've been so hungry,

all the time!

ate dinner,

followed by gym.

after gym,

ate again!

freaking hungry!!!

i wanna throw my mobile outta the window

Aquarius Men

my own comments in pink!

Hot-hearted man who likes to do thing his own way. (oh yeah!)He can suddenly decide to do something without thinking of its outcome. He is the type of guy with an inside energizer, so if you fall in love with this type of guy be “patient” (definitely!), even if you have to follow him a bit. His creative mind could create fantastic idea any time.

If you do not understand or a not follow him, you won’t be with him for long. A man in this Zodiac will less likely to have a pale skin, and if he has a scar, it would be on his face or on his head. He moves very fast and very energetic, and he has a very self confident in himself. He is not the type to sit down and feel sorry or regret anything for long, especially with “Love”. (okkkk, goodness gracious me)

He loves justice. He dares to show his opinion or even argue about certain subject even he knows it might bring him problems. He is a very straight forward type of guy. He hardly lies except if he thinks it is necessary and he is not a good liar anyway. (necessary huh? i thought i heard that somewhere before, hmmm...) He will not lie to you about serious matter, but if he lies he will lay only a small little thing. He is gifted with the ability to be a very social person. He could talk even about subject that he has no knowledge of.

He interests only at the present time and look at the world positively. Many times he feels hurt because of reality, but he will not run away and he will overcome that difficulty. Even he is a high and self confident type and centers his own thought as a main focus, but at the same time he is a kind, cute and polite guy. He certainly is not a mean person. (i like that)

He likes to help people who are in troubles even he is not asked to. (100% true!!!)He is the type who feels sorry if you remember bad things he said to you that he had already forgotten, but you did not. Believe him that he is very sorry and give him another chance. (believe? Once he decides to do something, he will put all his mind and energy in it either in his “Work”, or “Love”.

He is the type who gambles anything in the casino, so do not even take him there. He does not like pessimistic, low energy, and depress person, especially no brain. (tell me about it~~!!!)Strangely he likes to overpower this type of people to assure that he is more superior. He likes to be the first person to do something. (charming)You can see sparkling in his eyes, once he meets a new target or new lover.

Once he is in love, he will act as if he never has love like this before. This minute he could be real sugar sweet, and later he could also be an icy cold,(this is way too ACCURATE!) but do not blame him for that will only chase him away. He could fall in love again with another girl and act again like he never has this kind of love before. He could really love someone, but not a heart broken type for he thinks love is “excitement” and “Love goes on”.

If you date this kind of guy, do not or avoid showing your face to him with face pack, face mask, always be presentable, nice and cute. If he is quiet then it not means because he is shy, but instead he is only quietly thinking. If you have a chance to ask his X-girlfriend, she will tell you that he is not a shy or quiet type. If he is really and truly in love with you, he will never lie to you at all. (OK, SO HE IS NOT...)

How do you know if he loves you, bet on your faith! Love him and treat him steadily and do not try to find anything to argue with him, he will be with you for sure. If you are his lover or girlfriend and need to tell him something, go and say it out loud and straight forward because he hate long boring story. He hates to play games, chasing for love or being chased, so let him call you first. He likes a confident woman who also a good follower.

If he gets mad at you, let him be for only a short time he will be normal again. You have to like and be able to get along with his friends, but he does not have to do so with all your friends. (sighss, allow me to add on, he will not NOT make an effort to, either) Don’t ever think you could make him jealous by flirting with other man; he will just leave instead of making a scene because he is a confident man and has to be the first in everything. (that's TRUE!)

start from scratch

it rained,

of all nights.

heavily

i stood at the bus stop,

reminiscing.

On my way back,

almost fainted upon seeing a rat

screamed

luckily there wasn't a single soul on the road

im waking up early to collect my "recently splurge on" bag!

i don't know what im doing, anymore

i received only 2 msgs yesterday,

and the first came in only in the evening...

i can consider doing away my mobile,

maybe get a prepaid card for emergency use ba le..

today's better!

text baby and poon

when one is upset with whatever reasons,

hit the malls...

that's what im gonna do tonight!

massive shopping,

till our hands ache from all that carrying of shopping bags,

and legs ache from all that trying on of killer heels.

i have to remember to set aside $$$ to pay for my bag, though!

*squeals*

when u have nothing much in life,

it's made better when you have clothes, bags and heels...

which i brand them as ASSETS

:D

here's another example,

why im hard to maintain.

sighs

sighs

baby, cheer me up

mask my heart

my bunny ears and tail ♥

this halloween,

the first and probably the last...

memorable...

my eyes were damn fake,

way too dolly~

baby = Tree with loads of flowers!

Scream

spider queen

die die must pose until can see my tail!

sighs

everyone wants to take picture with scream

scream's gonna kill tree after being beautified

no matter how i feel,

be it sunny or rainy,

im trained to mask it all.

im a closed book,

indeed.

bad dreams follow suit

i told myself just few months back,

to stop thinking about the future

cos the future may not come.

but these few days,

i just cant help bouncing back to my old self,

the one who worries,

the one who thinks 24/7...

i have to remember,

remember that Life's too short!

So do whatever that pleases me,

life's too short to worry about pleasing other people!

i almost forgot, its impossible to call...

i had a nightmare yesterday,

cant exactly remember what it actually was.

i grabbed my mobile and wanted to call.

coughing

its 2 am now,

and im shopping online!

work's at 830 am,

did i mention i came home like not long ago only?

what will you do?

if the person you love,

cant make you happy?

anymore~

im waiting~

i cant even begin to tell how unhappy i have been...

last week was probably the worst,

i have had.

if you remembered,

it was the public holiday week.

there's this unspoken rule in my world that

sat and PHs are for couple.

i mean,

you go out in the streets,

what do u see?

couples!

last friday hit the club after texas poker at L's house.

and PH itself,

i went shopping alone.

cos i couldnt bear staying at home and emo the day away.

so i brave the world,

seeing couples holding each other's hand,

how i yearn for it

so so much

i shopped till my limbs ache,

ate alone at Subway with Mens Health for hours,

before i finally meet Eunice n Colleagues for Supper.

The world's with me,

everyone around me,

but yet,

why do i feel so alone,

so lonely?

You said you aint having a good time there either,

you said you were stressed with school...

we agreed to put in effort

but it came only for a day...

everywhere i go,

everything i do,

it reminds me of you.

cos you have been here,

memories lingered.

but for you,

a brand new place,

no memories of me...

you will never comprehend how i feel

everytime i give you this kind of "nonsense",

i get rebuke.

So,

i keep it all in me.

hoping one day,

it will disappear itself.

i really have to thank my colleagues.

without them with me,

i dont think i could pull through so many months.

now that im leaving,

leaving cos i thought it would be better for my future,

but yet at the same time,

im holding back.

because i know,

i probably wont meet people like them again.

and im all in to put that extra effort to maintain the friendship.

i can only hope it lasts

after all,

it takes 2 hands to clap.

i went to sing K on sat,

slept 2 hours and went to work,

and slept another hour or so before going for dinner.

i wanted to stay off alcohol this week,

cos alcohol is a depressant,

Mens Health said.

but in the end,

there's always a twist.

i said i love you yesterday to E,

and i miss you to A.

i hate myself for that.

when you left,

my heart left with you.

now,

i want it back.

because i aint happy,

for a long time.

im independent,

i like to think that i am.

it must be the "want to come, dun want to come" menses at work above,

im over the emo period.

happy vibes,

come to MAMA!

i have many many videos and pictures to post!

:)

Geminis are said to have split personalities.

whatever!

i've been busy with

1. work

2. partying

3. alcohol

4. shopping

5. crabs

6. colleagues

7. baby sah

8. gfs

9. fighting stalker G

I know you read me..

THIS IS FOR YOU, STALKER.

GET A LIFE!

IF DESTROYING MY RELATIONSHIP GIVES YOU THRILLS,

MAYBE A POLICE REPORT OR LAWYER LETTER WILL DO AS WELL.

WAIT FOR ME OUTSIDE MY HOUSE,

GRABBED ME,

THREW MY WATCH DOWN THE BUILDING,

ETC.

JUST HOW PATHETIC CAN YOU GET?

YOU GOT WHAT YOU WANT.

NOW MOVE ON,

AND GET A LIFE.

I HOPE YOU WILL GET A GIRL SOON,

WHICH I seriously doubt.

in bad shape

personal grooming,

in need.

next sat,

shall be.

bid farewell and hello to past pastures~

i say,

hello.

i say,

bye.

God gave me the best, truly.

off to concert, two days in a row!

Friday

KTV-pub

I sang 2 songs!

Winnie and me,

we both dont like to sing~

Felicia,

the K-queen!
Silas,
imitating SIM Ambassador

i got bored,

so whipped out my camera and started snapping

Henry and WinnieLawrence's totally smitten!

should i buy high cut canvas?

cute ma?

Saturday

we can be so so random.

rushed to baby's house,

waited for her to doll up,

cabbed down

(2 weeks in a row)

im a fan of last minute plans

We played Little Indian.

Baby kept tricking me,

and making me drink!!!!

cups after cups!

Me: "BABYYYYyyy! u betrayer!!!"

Baby: "*smile*"

2ND TIME!

Me: "BABYYYyyy! u lie to me AGAINNNNnnn!!!"

Baby: "hehehehe"

3RD TIME!!!!

Me: "Baby!!!!! i dONTTTT love u anymoreeeeee!!"

Baby: "but baby, you're the happinest when you drink"

Me: "awwWwwww, baby! u know me the best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

and then i continued drinking cups after cups,

thanks ah, baby! -_-"

conservative dressing

LOL

i need some TLC.

i want kisses and hugs!

5 mins of tipsy,

gone after a game of pool

I like Winnie,

she is also a gemini

(hehehe! i can hear my colleagues scolding me)

Felicia is a Taurus!

Happy's a scorpio (sighs)

Happy's superrr RED!!

drink so little,

yet so red!

Winnie is so KUA CHANG!

hide from the camera!!

we never stop cam-whoring

waiting in line for a game of pool

i love this pic!

Winnie looksss soooo happy WITH ME, of cos!

OKAY! THIS PIC IS REALLY MY FAVOURITE!

just check out Winnie's expression!

CLASSIC!!

Winnie! WHEN ppl wanna kiss you, you have to CLOSE your eyes!!!

let's try again!

okay, this is better!

baby got jealous,

and want kisses too

un-oh,

you know Baby's very PASSIONATE!

she GRABBED me!

damn fierce!

me: *blush*

Felicia wants some too!

big MUACKksssss

very difficult to get Felicia to DRINK!!

felicia,

why u side-eyed me!

and we ciao~

supper time!

Geylang's Dim Sum to SUM the night up!