have u waTch arsenal played on sat?
omg
they are..eh..were..eh..are..oh watever, are/were my favourite team
but i mumbled stupid (ive lost count how many times i said)
it was a bad bad bad game
and well they lost
(cover face n cry)

many times in life, i unconsiously "threw" away what meant the most to me
and i then regretted
sorry, bestie, i wasnt ther for you when u were admitted in hospital
u dint tell me cuz i was havin my exams
now that u told me, i feel so so so guilty
how hav u felt? lonely?
but nevertheless, i hope u noe i will b there for u k
i love u

indecisive

how i hate that.....

i seek perfection in everything
yet i hope u never see that imperfection in me
the imperfections which i dint perfect

i want everythin
i want something more, always something mor
yet im not willing to give more

i expect things to go the way i want
i want my way, and only my way
yet i dun look your way

i like to be at the top of the world
yet i resent beginning from the bottom

alrite, mood swings yet again
i hate MENSES!!!

anyway,.............................

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, QIMIN!!!

i backed out of program com
reject being an S/L which will b less taxing as being in program com
i felt much lighter, indeed, i am
i have been, honestly pondering which alternative should i take..
and i guess i have decided on this
and theres no turnin back
its final
im not perfect, nor 100% responsible, rational thinking
sorry to the many who held hopes on me
eddie, ouyang, bryan, mainly bsc ppl..
but i hope to work with you guys in future though
although HAHA, its YOUR LAST YEAR (covers mouth and laughs at eddie n ouyang)
hope it will b a success k!
and may it run smoothly
and OF COURSE, *advertisement* PLS SHOW FACE !!!!
ADVENTURE CLUB NEXT UPCOMING EVENT
ROCKAMANIA
PLEASE support me, us, we!
though not a participant, we hope u can come as audience..
cheer for your friends?
or if u r super free, can HELP ME!!!!!
=)

thanks uncle chong for putting up with my continous nonsense!
hello! the mood swings mus b due to my damn menses!
*angie wave hands in innocence and blame it on menses*
=)

caught Casanova!!!
i rate it FULL MARKS
10 popcorns for that
i love happy endings
i love movies like those, but still if u haven watch i not stupid too, i suggest u do!
i rated that 11popcorns out of 10 popcorns
its f**king GOOD...

here comes the holidays we hav been lookin forward to..

dun envy me
i dun like to be envied by ppl
u dunno the struggles within me
the underlying truth is : i dont know what i really want


im selected in the program com for S/L camp
i went with anticipation, to the interview with amber
hopin tt i will get into program com
after all, it will most probably be my one last time to ever have that chance again
i hav always wanted, i think
a love for organising, i have
perfection, i expect
but mor than often, the high expectation made me feel somewhat unhappy wit certain outcomes
im kept in between on whether to join or not to join
keepin in mind of how the others feel
im suddenly unsure
lookin at the packed schedule i have, with upcomin events which i hav a take
rockamania..Mc retreat..Ac camp
Mc retreat n Ac camp is my project
and i hope to take pride in them
Ac camp holds a very high priority cuz it is the signature event for adventure club
and it will be the one n only, the first n last AC camp i will organise with my other comm
how many know how i feel for these?
these that i sometimes complain time consuming and yet, it stays close to my heart
backin out of program com will probably make a few disappointed in me
adventure club, i carry its name
being responsible is what i want to b
and since im already selected in the program com
i will and will and will fulfil all obligations
i dun wanna back out n end up regreting not havin enough fun during my poly life
after all, how many chances do u have to b able to take part in school activities again?

i bring to u good news~
my colleague passed her driving tp!
ah, one more P plate holder
CONGRATS, belle

nobody blogs during exam, i realised
gena, oh well, as usual, she SELDOM blog
the rest are all mugging hard for exams
the thought make me break out in cold sweat
sometimes i wished to be like them
to mug when required
but i can never never hav dat kind of determination
oh well, alrite Ebay is calling me
ONLINE SHOPPING ROCKS when u r not suppose to b out shoppin cuz its exams week

my favourite subject was FOI - Fundamentals of Investments
and i sat for my favourite paper today
and i screwed it up

i had monday blues yesterday
today is tuesday red

i was late for paper's readin time due to the buses that took so so long
i sat down n flipped through
a sharp pain, i felt in my stomach
haven been feelin well in the stomach since mornin
i endured the pain n attempted all MCQs which i hope to at least pass all
the paper is so out of the world
the lecturer were helpful in giving us tips on topics that DID not come on (points middle finger)
the qns were so so difficult
probably cuz of my over preparation in an attempt to maintain the A tt i gotten for coursework
i couldnt stand it anymor
so i raised my hand n requested for TOILET
@#%#^&&&&##!@$^*^(*&(
those were the strings of curses i said when i got in the toilet
i happened to have my da yi ma (big aunt's visit)
oh dammit
that spoils the paper further!
so this is the origin of my tuesday RED
tomorrow will be wednesday GOLD
gold cuz its the last day of exams
everyone screams "play!" "HOLIDAYS"
yippeeeeeee
im gonna relax for tml paper rather than stress it like i did for FOI
hello, i reli studied very very very hard for FOI but why! why i dunooo how to do!
alrite..u say reason : dumb
i say : hard work dosen pays..

its time for a nap
but before that, i gonna dig for lunch
bread, anyone?
and mum is not at home for dinner
which mean ...means... i have absolutely NOTHING to eat
but its ok!
i will hav a feast tml after exams, i HOPE!
oh no, not A feast but MANY MANY feasts
=)

a mystery with no clues

thats what i wanna b

i need to RELAX
getaway from the people ard me
the perception of being nice is irritatin the hell out of me
i wanna b mean for the week and b treated like a princess
groan
im jus feelin abit whiny
is this somekind of pms or is it mood swing?
sometimes, i heard of the many things which i wish i haven heard
oh whatever
alrite off to bed den mug for FOI
wake me up at 6pm!

p/s: i miss my friends..i want to cya'll NOW

disclaimer: jus another random thought

if u realised your mistake, why aint u changing it?
why fake it as if ya serious abt it?

it took me some time to realise what kind of person u are
many things i jus wanna overlook n forget abt it
some things good abt you, i kept tellin myself
i wanna good at the good side
but why does the other side keep showing its face?

why dun u jus grow up, for goodness sake?

disclaimer: jus another random thought

disclaimer: jus another random thought

if u realised your mistake, why aint u changing it?
why fake it as if ya serious abt it?

it took me some time to realise what kind of person u are
many things i jus wanna overlook n forget abt it
some things good abt you, i kept tellin myself
i wanna good at the good side
but why does the other side keep showing its face?

why dun u jus grow up, for goodness sake?

disclaimer: jus another random thought

disclaimer: jus another random thought

if u realised your mistake, why aint u changing it?
why fake it as if ya serious abt it?

it took me some time to realise what kind of person u are
many things i jus wanna overlook n forget abt it
some things good abt you, i kept tellin myself
i wanna good at the good side
but why does the other side keep showing its face?

why dun u jus grow up, for goodness sake?

disclaimer: jus another random thought

disclaimer: jus another random thought

if u realised your mistake, why aint u changing it?
why fake it as if ya serious abt it?

it took me some time to realise what kind of person u are
many things i jus wanna overlook n forget abt it
some things good abt you, i kept tellin myself
i wanna good at the good side
but why does the other side keep showing its face?

why dun u dun grow up, for goodness sake?

disclaimer: jus another random thought

for every sentence i read in my notes, i think abt one thing to do after the exams
and here i present
of course
the main n top n hottest thing to do would be, shamefully

SHOPPING

i ate many food today
one particular snack got me thinkin abt my secondary life
oh well, mainly EUNICE TAY WEI WEI
hey eunice! u remembered i used to go to your old house after school?
and we snacked on this reli huge bucket of pickled mangoes (preservatives - yellow looking thing)
and its somewhat sour n sweet
we kept muching n muching n eating
i miss those days
awwwwwwww............

i dun understand why do some people study from day to night
without any desire to slack, shop, eat, play, sleep?
but i DO...
is there something wrong with me? or is there something wrong with them?

what she truly wants

she was home alone, yet again
if she's not out with frens, she will always n stil always be home alone
occasionally, she may b lucky to hav her sisters to accompany
she see less of her parents
she had a sudden crave for cheese omelette sandwich
and so she decided to make one
she took out an egg
a slice of cheese
she beat the egg, add soy sauce, pepper
and pour in into the w0k
it became a BLACK cheese omelette which turns out to b very salty due to the soy sauce
at some bites, it is spicy cuz of pepper (it wasnt mix properly)
-_-"

all she wanted was a proper family
a mother who cooks for her every meal
a dad who comes home evry nite to hav dinner with the whole family
as for her sisters, they are perfect
she envy people who complains abt their mum's cookin
she envy families that dine together
u asked why does she has so many friends?
but u never noe why
u asked why does she seem indifferent
but u never noe why
her close friends has families like hers
but do you?
count yourself lucky to be different

 

 

 

 

 

 

if i could turn back time, there are jus so so many things i would like to change and do...
but humans hav to realised that whats passed will passed
its all about the past which we want to forget so why not look forward instead?

to amber: once a friend, always a friend

i wan more MORE more than what i have now
im a book which u will not understand despite reading for umpteen times

im bored
very bored
extremely bored
ultra bored
its the curse again
whenever exams comes, i blog constantly, 1entry per hour
hopeless
im so so so so bored
i wanna sleep sleep sleep sleep and not wake up
i wanna sleep forever
im hungry
very hungry
extremely hungry
i wanna eat eat eat eat eat til i choke n die
i wanna eat without puttin on pounds
ah, good news, i lost 3 kg!!!
hurray
ok, but im hungry now!
groan
*chew bottom lip*

i cant seem to start studyin
my hands refused to touch the notes i left all lying around on my desk
my legs refused to get me seated at the desk chair
my brain refuse to motivate me
my brain said"ah, lets slack for one mor day. Its only 3 papers"
my common sense says" evryone is studying. So why aint u starting? u wouldnt wan to rush last min!"
but its 3 against one
so well, decision: study tml lar, RELAC first! heh

if you are a mother of three BEAUTIFUL ladies
On valentine's day, NONE of them bought any roses back, not even a miserable stalk of rose
what would u think?
the mother worries n keep asking questions

the mother mentioned above is my very own..-_-"

disclaimer: just a random thought

valentine day..

what is the true meanin to valentine day?

hav u ever wonder why such a day emerge?

i hav no idea

well, if u do, lemme noe

are you the kind of girl who rejects every guys' date,

jus so hopin that the one u really want as ur valentine to ask you out?

as the days go by,

as you keep rejectin the others,

as the minutes ticked,

as you grow weary,

ou realised that that person will never gonna ask u out

and there you are, on valentine's day,

all alone at home,

or perhaps havin your meals alone at some fast food restaurant?

you were so sure abt the person's feelings or so, he had made clear to u that he likes you

but yet, on valentine day, u dint get a date from him..all you got was a vday msg..

what would you do?

would u appear indifferent?

or would u jus give up totally on that dumb arse?

my advice: Look forward to a better guy..That wimp simply hv no BALLS or he simply is jus a liar

are you the kind of girl who is happily in love?

you are showered with roses and presents from the one you truly love..

you thought things couldnt get any better

your dinner went fine

you had his company

while he had your company

it was truly a bliss

my advice: its right to cherish what u have but dun love the guy mor than he does..

are you the kind who is single n recently had a failed relationship?

pick yourself up again n face the world

theres other things in life to feel happy abt

instead of gettin all upset over someone who dosen appreciatee you

give urself a treat

go for a shoppin spree

my advice: look around n u will realised you hav been missing out a a lot

ok, im feeling retarded..yawn

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

people changes..

they do, i realised in a flash

what am i feelin so empty about?

T R U S T

when u trust someone, u expect the person not to lie to you
when u trust someone, u expect the person to b open with u
when u trust someone, u expect the person to well...be totally honest

and so how would u rate whether the person is trustworthy?
does the fact that the person admits to his lie, so it means he is trustworthy?
so if he is ..
den why in the first place, if he is trustworthy, why did he even lie to u?
and the norm of humans when they r in the wrong, they say sorry n then backed it up with many excuses n reasons..
and so would u rate how high level or low level a lie is?
isnt it the same? or is it noT?
a lie is a lie..
it is to me, a betrayal of trust
if u r reli trustworthy, den u wouldnt lie
if u reli care, u wouldnt even hav lie
if u reli is the one, den why did u lie to smash tt beautiful picture?
i hav a higher expectation of you
u noe it
but u smash it

it took me a mountain to move on
it stil haunts me
what u did was so beautiful
but in the end, u shown to me what ive always assumed
u r the same as the rest
i thot u were diff

im not angry
im neither upset
but i dunno y
i cant get over this
and if it isnt such a major problem, why wont u give up something for me?
u bought back a nightmare which i fought for so long

For every wrong done, i build a brick

And for every brick i built, it brings me further away from you

it is a mistake

and i'll b fine the next day

a short reflection on poly life

year 1
i had a very closed (or so i felt) friend cum classmate
she cracks up all kinds of jokes
and i never fail to find it funny
she studies hard
she plays hard
i dragged her to adventure camps
i dragged her to annual general meetin
we shopped together (usually bugis) i dun noe y, she seemed to hav a love for bugis
we love to crash the muji in bugis
we love to check out prima deli for the crush she had for this guy
we love to take neo prints in all kinds of designs
we love to buy the same CHEAp $9.90 rip curl bag
we love to go into stationery shops n look at all the cute cute pens/pencils/books
we love to compare whose hair is the longest/shortest
we have always said "lets go REDS together n do our hair"
we have always said "lets go sentosa one day"
we have always said "lets go town"
but we never did..
She decided after her year one that studyin system in singapore was far too slow
she wanted more in life
she wanted to take the faster track
im happy for her
and so she wen to aust
there she go
sometimes, when im alone, deep in thoughts, i misses all the fun n companionship we shared
all that seemed to be a history
as if things will not b the same ever again
different goals
different dreams
different lifes
distance bought us apart
we tried to stay close
we did
but we somehow hav failed in one way or another
it pains my heart to know
that she isnt the same anymore
her name is yee san

sometimes in life, we unconsciously give up on people that really meant alot to us
it goes the same for all kinds of relationships, be it friendship or love..

Year 2
will reflect on that pro. later after the exams
but it certainly aint gonna be a glamourous one
cuz i realised business students r indeed how i have initially perceive them as..
they r well, sad to say, cunning n very selfish
though im a business student
well, i hav met quite a number of such to dictate that


alrite
i guess im not really in the most "flower" mood now

ALERT: major mood swings, i think

hmm, ok, im tired

gonna hit the sack NOW!!

im at chua hui may house..
im damn bored
thanks to evryone being late..and til now, they stil have yet to come!!!
so much for comin early to help
her mum have helped her to prepare ALL the food
haha
so here i am
bloggin away
ah............................................

w.H.y

why does a guy look at a girl when he himself is holdin his gf's hand?
why does a guy look at a girl when he himself is holding his wife's hand?
why does a guy look at a girl when he wears a weddin band on his fourth finger?
why does a guy look at a girl when he said he love someone
why does a guy look at a girl when he kisses another?

why cant they keep their eyes to the one they claimed they love?

why cant they jus keep to one option instead of MANY?

why do they claimed to be single when they are not?

why do they not make it public their status?

one word that answers it all : SELFISH

im disguted

have U watch "i not stupid too" ?

well, its time you should

if u dun hav enough money to watch,

go steal some JUST TO WATCH

it rocks

and my ratin for it would be 5/5

ah, full marks

it comprises of how youths r experiencin nowadays, with real life experiences
you n me have went thru or is goin thru

my fren say "the show is so gd tt i cried.."

i thought that she was jus emotional until i watched it for myself..
omg..it made me cried a hell lot..
its SO FREAKING TOUCHING

REALLY...

ah...

oh yes, ytd was dear uncle chong bday..
it started off with a borin day in school
followed by a trip to town for a VERY full dinner - steamboat
and shoppin at topshop - to buy my undies
and watchin "i not stupid too" - which i wan to watch
and den HOME - cuz i was dead beat

alrite
it sounds like my bday cuz all things seemed to be goin my way
opps
hee...sorry...im da authority one! (oh, am i?)
will be uploadin pics soon..
mayb ltr in the evenign ba..if im not gg to wendy house with uncle chong

they wanna gamble!
ah, itchy hands! i wanna win all their ANG pow money cuz my pathetic any pow only
amounted up to only S$40.00 which is well, u noe really really pathetic..i cant even buy a top with S$40.00..F**k
most temptin part is i think they have alcohol !!! BEER...(self check: angie looks down to check
size of tummy)..i wanna play five-ten! i wanna make them drunk..
ok, not in the right mind nw

hmm..
what to do on vday?
its exactly 12days from now

LIPING

call me
msg me
when u r finally in town!

my horoscope reads

"The Moon is in Pisces today, calming down recent argumentative energies. Someone who was recently disagreeable will be mellow and approachable. This may not be the most passionate day of the year, but comfort is possible. Do you like to cuddle?"

hmm, seems like im likely to be arguing with ppls?

CNY has been a fine time meetin up with all my diff clinches
happy, yes i was
been drinkin, gambling
ah, back to old habits (alrite, at this point, uncle chong will sure to start naggin)
meetin up with the mac ppl after so long..
lucas have well, hmm haven change in terms of personality but he hav stop smoking
as for the meet up with starhub ppl, well, its always a heart-warming experience i cherish

back to work this sat..
groan
im hopin they gimme a slack job, just standin there at the green card registration "booth"

lastly, ang pow collection is such such a disappointment..gosh, cant even buy me a single tee
but stil, im pretty pleased to meet up all the ppl i see 0nly once a yr..

AND

i wanna buy TOPSHOP undies

groan

i WANT~