last week was probably the worst,
i have had.
if you remembered,
it was the public holiday week.
there's this unspoken rule in my world that
sat and PHs are for couple.
i mean,
you go out in the streets,
what do u see?
couples!
last friday hit the club after texas poker at L's house.
and PH itself,
i went shopping alone.
cos i couldnt bear staying at home and emo the day away.
so i brave the world,
seeing couples holding each other's hand,
how i yearn for it
so so much
i shopped till my limbs ache,
ate alone at Subway with Mens Health for hours,
before i finally meet Eunice n Colleagues for Supper.
The world's with me,
everyone around me,
but yet,
why do i feel so alone,
so lonely?
You said you aint having a good time there either,
you said you were stressed with school...
we agreed to put in effort
but it came only for a day...
everywhere i go,
everything i do,
it reminds me of you.
cos you have been here,
memories lingered.
but for you,
a brand new place,
no memories of me...
you will never comprehend how i feel
everytime i give you this kind of "nonsense",
i get rebuke.
So,
i keep it all in me.
hoping one day,
it will disappear itself.
i really have to thank my colleagues.
without them with me,
i dont think i could pull through so many months.
now that im leaving,
leaving cos i thought it would be better for my future,
but yet at the same time,
im holding back.
because i know,
i probably wont meet people like them again.
and im all in to put that extra effort to maintain the friendship.
i can only hope it lasts
after all,
it takes 2 hands to clap.
i went to sing K on sat,
slept 2 hours and went to work,
and slept another hour or so before going for dinner.
i wanted to stay off alcohol this week,
cos alcohol is a depressant,
Mens Health said.
but in the end,
there's always a twist.
i said i love you yesterday to E,
and i miss you to A.
i hate myself for that.
when you left,
my heart left with you.
now,
i want it back.
because i aint happy,
for a long time.
im independent,
i like to think that i am.
it must be the "want to come, dun want to come" menses at work above,
im over the emo period.
happy vibes,
come to MAMA!
i have many many videos and pictures to post!
:)
Geminis are said to have split personalities.
whatever!
